this thing that we have now is currently one of the best thing in my life right now. I want it to be really good, so damn much… but he’s making it so hard for me. This guy is doing it all wrong and i feel like the more it goes like this the more i feel like I slip away but uh, do you even care. The worst thing is that i’m 100% convinced he’s not doing it on purpose because personally, this boy is genuinely kind, authentic  and considerate of people’s feeling but he’s so good at making me feel half-wanted. And i’m tired of feeling half-wanted. i’m trying to hold on to the good side, but isn’t it a little exaggerated now ? after all this time? Should I not deserve better? after all this time. Someone told me to tell you but is it even really worth the effort ? I am too kind hearted with some people and they don’t even see it. sometimes, when i’m here i’m not even really here like my mind is kind of wandering somewhere else, wondering why i still care for you when you’re not treating me that good. you are on your way to lose me. but uh, do you even care?